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Finding love in a man cause I don't have a dad Growing up without one this shit is sad Wanting all the nice things despite the fact I never got spoiled by him Letting you discipline me cause I think it's right Seeing all the low life niggas that entered me and my moms life I'm not in love with you only the sex That's the only time I feel like I'm the best Letting me call you daddy because I never got the chance to say it for real Looking back to all the niggas that hurt me but yet I keep my lips seal Seen my mother get mistreated by so many wrong niggas Don't know how I'm suppose to be treated cause I never had a father figure Looking back when my innocence got violated I always search for the wrong in every boy that Ive dated Thinking you can fill in the empty spot in my heart Cause I never had a father from the start Yes it hurt I do feel the pain The pain is no longer there when I'm screaming your name Sharing all m...

You asked why'd i stay its because i really see the best in you I didnt mind all those hoes who was trying to get next to you All them restless nights i was thinking about us How I wanna be the only one and and earn all your trust But i kept putting you first After you threw my heart in the dirt Man i swear you're the worst But i been through it all so I thought i can handle this How you trynna love me and your not even fixed Your past relations i know they broke your heart So why would you break mine when i was just loving you from the start Baby we can fix eachother we can make it work Put the sorrow behind us the pain and the hurt You asked me why'd I stay it's because I thought we'd fix this I thought you'd fight the fight with me I thought you'd listen  I love you so much its hard to leave Said you'd change for me i find that hard to believe Believe you love me and you wont hurt me again Believe that it was not...

You broke me down because it made you feel better! Now you see my worth now that we're no longer together Its crazy how it took my absence for you to realize you love me I shouldve realized it sooner when you put ol girl above me I know she is made u smile but that shit lasted a minute In this relationship with myself i was the only one in it You played both sides and never thought i would leave But i guess i was head over heals and it was hard to believe Believe in the purity of my love for you  Believe in my loyalty after i put you on a high pedestal  See i was foolish for that You fucked up i took you back See i was already fucked up mentally Bitch look at what you did to me But its straight, i'll be cool This shit just adds to the fuck up shit ive been through I made u my everything like you was blood pumping through my veins And thats where i fucked up cause u drove me insane You drained all my energy, like you took my life So i had ...

Im trying to breath but the tears are stopping me I have to stay strong because everyone keep watching me Its breaking my heart because i gave you my all Said you'll be there to catch me when i fall Trying to stop these tears Im so lonely and so scared Cant stay focused my mind is everywhere  Because not having no one there is what i fear Although it hurts to let go my heart needs some oxygen I'd hate to move on start all over again Being happy sounds so ideal Being with you is just so surreal I was Searching in all the wrong places.  I questioned if this was really love or was i mistaken.  You say you do but thats just your word that im taken.  Misleading me wich lead to my heartbreaking  And every single day its you that im chasing Even though you've been looking for an replacement Cant wait to get over this bad situation I guess it's a heart break that i'll be facing Not knowing whether I should exhale the hurt or may...

Lost in my eyes i cant see Fuck monogamy Are you blind to me Im a wreck! Emotionally The love withheld from me I thought i can change my selfish ways I want you all to myself Which isnt fair because I’m also hurting myself Even if you do wrong i want to stay Why cant i just fucking fade away Like a lost memory But you’re dream from my childhood that plays in my head to remind me that this shit will never be real I think it’s because I’m so pessimistic  Why are you so inconsistent I sleep with you every night but i feel the distance You say I’m tripping But I’m not i just see the difference What am i missing? You so nonchalant that I question my existence I gave you my love & trust but i didn’t receive the same And all i got back was lying, thats not a fair exchange You want me to say sorry because my feelings upset you But little do you know that I’m upset too And you wanna blame it on my insecurities  But you dont give me t...

I let you control my emotions   While I seek comfort in you Im so gullible that i always say I love you too We both know it isn't true but it feels so right I feel so comfortable hugging you at night We talk we laugh, shit seemed so cool But Nobody will ever know the pain i go through I smile every single day you'd think its bulletproof I hold it all in and let it sink down low Wipe the tears from my eyes and never let my feelings show I have to stay strong I have to hold on Even though everyday you be doing me so wrong But still i stay Dont have the energy to walk away No matter how many steps i take