Left with my Emotions

Lost in my eyes i cant see

Fuck monogamy

Are you blind to me

Im a wreck! Emotionally

The love withheld from me

I thought i can change my selfish ways

I want you all to myself

Which isnt fair because I’m also hurting myself

Even if you do wrong i want to stay

Why cant i just fucking fade away

Like a lost memory

But you’re dream from my childhood that plays in my head to remind me that this shit will never be real

I think it’s because I’m so pessimistic 

Why are you so inconsistent

I sleep with you every night but i feel the distance

You say I’m tripping

But I’m not i just see the difference

What am i missing?

You so nonchalant that I question my existence

I gave you my love & trust but i didn’t receive the same

And all i got back was lying, thats not a fair exchange

You want me to say sorry because my feelings upset you

But little do you know that I’m upset too

And you wanna blame it on my insecurities 

But you dont give me trust, love, or any type of security

I know i come off as obsessive

Giving you these clues but your not getting the message

My love is being held hostage by someone that makes me vulnerable and weak

Now my emotions are at its highest peak

And now you’re saying i cant speak

Because this love we had is now obsolete

You’ve shown me that you dont feel the same

But i keep telling myself thats its part of the game

I guess i got that confused with infatuation

My confusion led to another heartbreaking 

It was too much for me to take in

So now ill leave this relationship with  less than I came in with